school, again, tragic thing happened. on the 2nd day of school.

well, first week of school was very tiring, sleep at 9, seriously..

then i woke up at 4 or 5 am..

mmg b'semangat and im trying to maintain it, to get through this year..

but something outrageous happened on the 2nd day..

my twins, female version, ami or i will say Amilia Zaharah Abdul Razak..

passed away, out of leukemea..

it's a loss, a great deal to me..

sbb dia tak bagitau pun dia hidap leukemea..

and she told her lil sis, Amira, to give me a letter, that she wrote..

she told me it's painful, but yet enjoyable because it's only for a while..

it's just something i said to her and i posted it in this blog..

i said the same thing to aaina and diana..

the 3rd day, still mourning for her death, tiba-tiba dapat call dari amira lagi..

that Ami mewasiatkan her diary to me..

yeah, drastic, i dont have the heart to read it..

80% of her entry is about me..

how i taught her to be optimist about things, how i make her realize that a smile can make a difference..

it sounds like fiction but hell no..

this is the real thing going on..

i cant imagine how a dying girl can smile, a smile so sweet that is ALMOST melted my heart..

Ami was like my lil sis, i dont have any lil sis..

i gave much advice to her..

yet, u still practicing it when u are dying eh?

may allah bless u ami. Al - Fatihah..