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TUHAN

keluarga, kawan kawan, kerjasama, empati, kasih sayang, banyak lagi laa..

haih, kenapa laa, why can't everyone forgive and forget?

please laa, be civilized for awhile..

for better or worse, u have to get through it jugak..

dont blame another person, for something u did..

idk if i want to talk about it in this blog..

i've given my advice, kau dengar mcm nak taknak je..

apa apa je lah, tanggungjawab aku dah lepas sbg kawan untuk nasihatkan kau..

thanks, thanks for all this complications.

i appreciate it =)

My Holiday Schedule

haha!

this holiday is one of the best thing that have gone through in my life!

SAT - Swimming at Palace Of The Golden Horses

SUN - picnic at Sungai Gabai

MON - visiting budak sakit, my dearest Aaina invited, then that evening, idk but i meet Aaina again for my bestfriend's sake, he wanna meet Diana, so, i think its a double date on that day. =]

TUE - camping at Doctor Campsite, a private camping sites just for those who really know the owner, what an honour!

WED - date! again!

THU - balik kampung! but got an unfortunate funeral, coincidently.

FRI - idk, i FONGOT! haha! but i pergi solat jumaat ok?

SAT - work work work!

SUN - idk, belum jumpa lagi..

haha!

MON - School! XDD

haih, cuti cuti.

like always, holidays are great, but then it became monotonous!
haiya!
im gonna miss my friends, teachers, d40s, lab, computers, classes, free internet etc etc..
haha!
holiday is great, enjoyable yet boring sometimes.

haish!

idk why..

lately, i've been happy, tapi bila duduk sorang sorang...

kepala ni melayang kat situ jugak, takda tempat lain dia nak singgah..

idk if its a burden or a leisure anymore, dulu lain, skrg lain..

tadi masa kat ICT, zhaf suddenly bukak profile fb naj..

then, terus flashback masa kejadian terjadi tuu..

org ckp mmg tak elok berpegang dgn benda yg dah lepas..

tapi kalau benda tu dah lepas, and dia dtg balik, mcm mana?

sakit kepala ni..

shit*

kenapa aku asyik teringat kat arwah naj and ami?

damn!

emm, let smile!

i dont know why i tend to ran into a lots of people whose having a problem..

they kinda effected me in some ways..

somehow, when they told me their problem, i feel like a saviour..

i wanna help them, but im just a person, normal student..

helpless.

so lets smile to make things better =]

even we cant solve the problem, at least we enjoyed trying to solve it..

and happy too!

idk why i posted this thingy, haha!

school, again, tragic thing happened. on the 2nd day of school.

well, first week of school was very tiring, sleep at 9, seriously..

then i woke up at 4 or 5 am..

mmg b'semangat and im trying to maintain it, to get through this year..

but something outrageous happened on the 2nd day..

my twins, female version, ami or i will say Amilia Zaharah Abdul Razak..

passed away, out of leukemea..

it's a loss, a great deal to me..

sbb dia tak bagitau pun dia hidap leukemea..

and she told her lil sis, Amira, to give me a letter, that she wrote..

she told me it's painful, but yet enjoyable because it's only for a while..

it's just something i said to her and i posted it in this blog..

i said the same thing to aaina and diana..

the 3rd day, still mourning for her death, tiba-tiba dapat call dari amira lagi..

that Ami mewasiatkan her diary to me..

yeah, drastic, i dont have the heart to read it..

80% of her entry is about me..

how i taught her to be optimist about things, how i make her realize that a smile can make a difference..

it sounds like fiction but hell no..

this is the real thing going on..

i cant imagine how a dying girl can smile, a smile so sweet that is ALMOST melted my heart..

Ami was like my lil sis, i dont have any lil sis..

i gave much advice to her..

yet, u still practicing it when u are dying eh?

may allah bless u ami. Al - Fatihah..